It's been a couple of days; I know posting has been sporadic this week. Why? One word: COLLEGE. Between being gone most of each day for classes and work, having home work and work at home (read: dishes and cleaning), and then being exhausted at the end of each day, I literally haven't found time for posting.
However, it is time to start finding time. Because I need to write. In my fiction-writing class this morning, I realized why: I'm a writer, and therefore, writing is necessary. It is also imperative that I write because I need to get better at it, to keep a record of where I've been and where I'm going, and to discover what the Author of my life had in mind when He wrote my story. I know the ending already...but where is this going, God? What do You have to teach me?
Writing is my outlet. It's a way to make some sense of my crazy life and my mixed-up, feminine brain. It's a way to process what I'm learning, which is a lot, all the time. It's a way to ask myself questions, and then answer them later. For example:
Why is it so hard for me to write natural-sounding dialogue? (Note to self: start eavesdropping more. Hear and remember how people talk.)
Why do I almost always write romantic stories? (Must write something more interesting and realistic. About the young woman looking for love who doesn't find it. GAH! Still romantic! No romantic love involved, at all.)
Will I be able to make sense of philosophy? Isn't God the answer to every question of life? Shouldn't it be that easy? (I know it won't be...)
Will I get a poem into the student poetry magazine this year? (Again. PRACTICE.)
Am I going to have time to get bread made this week? To get laundry done? (That just HAS to happen, no matter what...)
How do I love my husband more, and fully, and to the best of my abilities? (God grant me grace!)
This, then, is why I need to write: to figure out for myself the answers (God's answers?) to all my questions. And hopefully, to answer someone else's questions in the process.
I pray God will use your writing to speak to your heart. Remember what Dad and I taught you: You learn more by listening than by speaking. I also pray that as you practice writing, God will continue to develop the amazing gift He has given you. May that gift be a tool through which you bless others and draw them closer to our Lord. I love you!
ReplyDeleteJaimie - You've put into words what I could not the other day. I understand your need to write - perhaps I write for different reasons, but I understand that need nonetheless. Thank you for posting this today. It was so timely for me. God is bombarding me with messages today and it is wonderful.
ReplyDeleteMom, thank you for your wisdom and encouragement...I will always need that from you.
ReplyDeleteAngie, it's good to know there's others out there who feel the same way. I'm glad God is using my words to speak to you...that's what I pray will happen when I write. :)